Because you have to start somewhere...

Once upon a time, I created a blog. I thought it was a wonderful little idea. Why wouldn't I want to write down thoughts, and then share them with the world?? Who cares if no one ever bothers to read it? At least I had the chance to free up my mind. Therefore, this page was born.

About five minutes after I had created the blog, I decided that I would place my first post. I started to type and continued to compose for an entire hour. When I was finally ready to publish, I hit the button on the screen and everything froze. An error had occurred with my silly PC and I was forced to lose all that I had begun.

By this point, I was exhausted. I was determined to become a blogger, but I had no energy. I decided to put it off one more day. However, in my world at least, one day can sometimes cause memory failure. That being said, after my vacation from blogging, I was lost in forgetfulness, and it completely slipped my mind that I had created a blog in the first place....months later, I realize that this page is still sitting here....WAITING.......

And so here I am, at the beginning...because everyone has to start somewhere.....
though I had strayed, its still here, staring me down, waiting for me to answer it....waiting for me to need it....It doesn't need me....but it longs for me to place posts on it........

I know this may sound absurd, but I compare this blog to God. Sometimes in my "daily walk" I find myself straying from the Lord. I place myself before him. I forget him. I don't live ONLY for him. I don't realize that he is constantly with me.

When I finally notice that this is happening....I return to find him WAITING, wanting me even in that failure. Just like my blog, HE doesn't need me.....but he longs for me to call on his name....he longs for me to desire him and call him Daddy.

How blessed we are to have a God who loves us even when we don't love him! How wonderful is he who would give us grace everyday of our lives, though we certainly do not even begin to deserve it.

Praise the Lord!

And so here I am, at the beginning...because everyone has to start somewhere...though I had strayed, He welcomes me with open arms....his mercies are new every morning.

Thanks Daddy.